I met Eve in Hawaii at a yoga retreat in 2017. Prior to officially meeting, she witnessed me holing up an airport line as I spoke with the lady at check-in about the meaning of her wedding ring. I’m the worst.
Once she forgave me for the scene at the airport, we became fast friends. Two days later, I watched her run her first full marathon – winning 1st place for her age category. I cried – so incredibly proud of my new friend. We returned to Hawaii last month, processing 2018 and brainstorming for 2019. It was then we realized, 2018 – you were the hilliest marathon of all.
Eve is the most relatable and down to earth person I know. She is always looking for the lesson in anything life throws her way, through an unparalleled sense of humor. As a profession, Eve works with sick children AND gives space to weekly sold out yoga classes in Vancouver. She empowers all of the women who are lucky enough to be in her circle and is always striving for more. I couldn’t be prouder to have her contribute to Adventuring Loss with her powerful words on presence. Frankly, we could all use the reminder. I can’t wait to see what we work on in the years to come.
2018: You dirty little rascal you
If there was one theme to my life the past few years, it is the desire to be present in all avenues of my life. To live and enjoy the highs and lows of each moment, to achieving that flow like state I have read about in countless books. This state of flow, where you move through life with a sense of ease, a purpose, where overthinking and constant questioning is kept to a minimum. Yes, living in the past or future can overwhelm you and I may even go as far to say it will negatively impact the quality of your life in the present. However, you cannot deny that what you have experienced in the past shapes how you move and make decisions in the present. Of course I don’t want to be stuck in the past but I would much prefer to have learnt and grown from my lessons of the past year to gain better insight of the year ahead.
Technically speaking, 2018 has come to a close and whether I acknowledge it or not it is necessary to close the year and move forward with a fresh perspective into to 2019. 2018 was messy, confusing and even catastrophic at times. Through the chaos there was so much beauty, strength and love. It is unreasonable to even attempt to control what life may throw your way. Nonetheless, you do get the opportunity to rise to it and to handle yourself with grace in seemingly impossible situations. Growth doesn’t occur by chance but through acting intentionally when life becomes difficult. By force, it shifted the focus from what we thought our priorities were to where we needed to place our attention.
It’s cool. You know, when you go into the year wishing for consistency and instead you are constantly trying to get off the rollercoaster of extreme highs and lows. I’m glad I didn’t. I’m glad I chose presence and to feel during a seemingly eventful and difficult year. I was given the privilege to stand by my loved ones through their best days and holding them for their darkest. The truth is, I often times ask the universe for the easy road, the road where answers are easily given to me so the path seems clear. I have begun to accept that each opportunity that presents itself carries its own beauty and vision.
Thank you 2018, you challenged me, you changed me and you gave me what I needed even if it wasn’t what I asked for. Things shifted, shaked and turned upside down. Now here we are, resilient as ever and ready to embark on a new chapter.
I am prepared for you 2019. Taking my experiences forward, knowing I cannot control what may come my way but rather knowing that I am capable. I am capable of excelling and growing in an everchanging environment. When it comes down to it, I want to blossom and be challenged and out of my comfort zone. I am choosing to let go of 2018 and take forth my earned strength and lessons. I cannot help but feel this year has something new, amazing and beautiful to show me.